The Dance Of Ignorance

She dances with,

The ignorance of watching eyes

Liquor became her disguise

To cover up actions,

That she despised

To herself she even lies

She got use to pain

She no longer cries

She stop that

After she gave her heart,

To some random guy

The Chosen

I idolized money to the extent of worshiping

Dead Presidents, A Pyramid, And The All Seeing Eye

How could I not see the lie

The Devil ruled me through my ignorance

But my God opened my eyes

He showed me my heart was in pieces

He taught me what peace is

So now,

Even when my blessings find decreases

I'm able to find joy

Usual Day

How do you build up trust

When your foundation isnt love

But lust

You became accustom,

To the constant arguing and fighting

Well atleast the sex after is exciting

But there is a problem

When they are no longer stating problems

But reciting

It seems every relationship isn’t meant to be

But we are all just slaves to destiny

Wounded Skies

I could drown in the drops that fell,

From her wounded skies

I see the world when,

I look into her eyes I see her heart broken

by all the lies

I can no longer see trust

She lost that

Right after she found love

In a rush

The Light Pt. II

There was a little girl

Who lived in the light

She had always seen the light

But as she laid in the bed of a relative

Her safety became irrelevant

As her screams went unheard

Through the night

She no longer seen the light

So she ran away into the night

Of dreams, she lost sight

Now she's afraid of the light

She swears at God behind many tears

But she no longer believes

That God even hears

So she loses her God

As she sheds her tears

And moves on in life

The Light

They don't see me

They see my pad and pen

See the words that I write 

But they don't see the light

They see the destruction 

And the fights

Yet they choose not to see the light

The same light

that lights the fiends pipe

light the pages

that I read to the children at night

They choose not to see the light...

That the darkness tries to hide

The children then lost they pride 

All hopes then died

All because they couldn't see the light

So now they hide in the darkness

Surrounded by the clouds

So they're thoughts became aroused...

And kids begin to have kids

The dads never seen their kids

The kids never seen the light

Because it was shining to bright

To them darkness was the light 

Doing wrong was doing right

They was stealing matches just to light the night

They lived right on the edge of the City of the lights

But they never seen the light

Fuck The World

When I was in the 6th grade
My mom bought me a shirt
On it, It said Fuck The World
So I wore it to school
All my friends thought it was cool
The principle didn't 
He made me wear my gym shirt over it
So that the one my mom got me was hidden
Back then I didn't know of the first amendment
Didn't understand the freedom of speech
Yet some how I still felt like,
A wrong was done to me

The Land Of Broken Dreams

In This World Equality Is Impossible

But It is Preached Because It's Logical 

Reality isn't always what it seems

I know all to well about broken dreams...

Dreams only die,

When you kill them...

So where do dreams go,

When they die..

Maybe the same

place tears go, When they dry..

Or where the truth goes,

When it get buried by lies.

This shouldn't come to no surprise,

But all dreams don't come true...

Especially if you solely depend on a virtue,

Like patience...

I'm not trying to say,

It's something wrong with having faith and waiting...

But prepare your field for the rain...

And prepare yourself for the pain...

For no blessing,

Comes without tribulation...

I hope that's what is going on...

Across this nation...

Which they say is the land of dreams...

But they lied it seems...

Words

I can take pain up to torture
I can deal with the abuse
I can deal with loneliness
Solitude is actually preferred 
I can't deal with the words
It's not the negative words that get to me though
Its words like "I Love You"
Those words cut the deepest
Because even though I know you lying
For some reason I want to believe you
Especially If I know I love you
You make me second guess myself
When you say things like that
Like maybe I don't love myself enough to believe you
But in reality I know I love myself too much to believe you

Words do the most damage
See physical pain go away
But them words stay
I can live through the pain
But it's hard to live with a broken heart
Especially when you deny it's even broken
I try to hide the pain behind my smile
The worse the pain means the wider my smile
See pain hurt but them words cut deeper
The truth hurts... Them lies kill...
They kill all types of relations
They kill trust
And each lie you told had the potential to kill us

I Gave My Heart To A Temptress

She hid truth behind her lies

Pain behind her eyes

And pleasure between her thighs

It was she who caught my eyes

It was then that I realized

As lovely as she

Love was she

And deeply in love was me

Because her pure essence consoled me

Her desires controlled me

She loved me too

From her deceitful lips she told me

The Wolf And The Sheep

Somehow the wolf became laid up with the sheep

She wonders if God still hears her weep

She'll be the first to admit that she's weak

For she know God is a Sheppard over the meek

So how did she end up with one

From a different fold

She doesn't know

Probably after she lost patience

And it seems there he was waiting

So ready to fall

She fell without guidance

To catch her she was relying,

On him, But he was lying

Due to false circumstances of trust

Instead of landing in love

She found herself surrounded by lust

State Property

Life is a Chicago Winter

Cold and cruel

Get dropped by some young fool

His mindset was fuck a job

Fuck school

Now he behind bars

What a fool

He right where our grandfathers' masters wanted me

Lock down with chains in a penitentiary

For killing his own kind

What a misery

"Misery- The state of suffering and want

As a result of physical circumstance

Or extreme poverty"

Day To Day Life

Days blend together
Day after day
After day
Hanging over the nights
Hung over by the next day
Sorrows drowned by Vodka
Tears muted out by music
Inhaling
Just to exhale
Or maybe just to escape hell
Imprisoned in the worst cell
My own mind
Surrounded by negative spirits
The world lies on my chest
Crying 
Can you hear it???
Well I cant hear
The sound gets muted out
Under all the bills, rumors, lies, and responsibilities
And anything else that is bound to be

Elavator Music For The Soul

She says my poetry is like...
Elevator Music For Her Soul...
Little do she know..
I'm trying to elevate her...
And if possible save her soul...

She says my poetry is like...
Therapy for her ears...
Even though she's standing right here...
She doesn't realizes...
It's her pain behind my words that she hears...

A Soul That Needs To Be Freed

I'm trying to figure out am I a good person who does bad deeds...
Or a bad person who does good deeds....
My soul is trapped inside this flesh which has needs... 
Even if I try to stop I eventually proceed...
I believe that Jesus Christ freed me from sin... 
But still I'm trapped in this world that I'm in...
Surrounded by demons in plain clothes... 
I'm behind enemy lines and they know...
I don't belong... 
Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone...
Seeing that we living in darkness, 
And somehow I'm the only one who sees the light...
So it seems like I stand alone to fight...
I just pray that I'm fighting the good fight... 
On the side of whats right...
Lord why are these people so blind... 
Even the ones who see don't take their time.. 
To come up with a solution...
We live in a world of pollution of wrong.. 
And maybe I'm wrong..
But I refuse to be silent and hold my tongue...
While my brothers and sisters lose their dignity,
Dancing to some up beat song...

Surrounded By Love

Love surrounded us,

Symbolical of a ring.

Continuing forever,

Love is such a beautiful thing.

But whenever you find love,

You also find the potential to find the same amount of hate.

So if we continue at this rate,

I'm afraid that you might end up hating me.

But I cant have that,

Because you the one motivating me

So lets just work on us,

and wait and see.

But be prepared,

Because we might not end so happily.

So don't easily get lost in a world of make believe.

If you feel this real,

Than make me believe.

But if not,

Than just let me leave.

Tempted Tears

The tears that drop from her eyes, Don't make her weak.

They are needed for her to make it through the week.

Her pain makes her unique.

She hides all pain behind her smile.

She’s sweet.

But the world tried to make her sour.

They tried to make her admire.

Unnecessary luxuries.

And idolize celebrities.

The world wanted her to feign for things she didn't need.

A Simple Kiss

We shared a kiss under the moon

And fell in love too soon 

It entered into a cocoon

Grew big, beautiful, black butterfly wings,

And drifted away with the wind like a balloon 

Just maybe we said goodbye too soon

The Same Smile

When you think of her

You think of her smile

She then had the same smile

Since she was a little child

You can ask her uncle, her aunty,

Even the lady who claims the last time she seen her

That she could barely crawl

They claim she was a happy baby

Instead of crying she would laugh when she'd fall

And ever since then she kept the same smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

I met her when I was eight 

She was my play mate

We use to play on the swings

Try to swing over the top

imagining we had wings

We use to play house, 

I was Daddy

And she was Mommy

I would go to work,

When I got home she would console me

Her lil sister was only five

She was our daughter

All this was only imagination

But she wouldn't believe that

Even if you told her

Back then she would always smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

See we was only eight

But ever since then,

I always dreamed about our fate

We was only 12 when I asked her to our first dance

I was scared to ask her of course

But I just couldn't miss the chance

To my surprise she said yes

And also blessed, me with her smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

This Morning

I opened my eyes this morning and took my first breath...

Took notice of my surroundings, Then checked myself...

And made sure I was in good health... 

Sounds like an easy task... 

But tell that to 1 of the thousand's of people that didn't wake up...

Tell that to 1 of the many abused child who life story is worst than any you can make up...

The smallest things we take for granted, Is cherished by someone else... 

So Cherish every breath... 

Live for the moment...

Everyday find your enjoyment... 

Don't get loss in your stress...

Remember that you're blessed...

Who Will Help Her???

You didn't see the tears 

That she was hiding through the years

You did see the bruises

Though she covered them with excuses

You didn't see the fights

That happen behind their doors at night

You never heard her cries

But you saw the pain behind her eyes

She never asked you for help

Deep down inside she knew that she needed her self

Because who knew what she face better than she did

She was a grown woman on the out side but inside still a kid

Calling out for help but no one would answer

And as time went on the problem grew worse like cancer

She looking for a "Doctor" to come and tear it out

But no one heard her mental scream and internal shout

So who will help her who physically cant ask for help

And who will help her who cant help her self

Love, Laughter, & Tears

Let my love

Be like 

Your favorite song

Always there

To comfort you

And to relate to you

Let my laugter

Be like

A past good memory

When ever you think of it

It also make you laugh

Let my tears

Be like 

A secret message

Letting you know 

That I hurt too

Worthless Tears

If tears could heal... 

Everyone that fell from her eyes would be worth it's weight in gold... 

Making it all worth it...

It seem like he hurts her on purpose...

So now she crying to the Lord asking why she deserve this... 

Feeling so low, damn near worthless...

She's getting bags under her eyes... 

Losing too much sleep stressing over some guy... 

To escape she search for a high...

Her escape is a lie... 

She buried herself alive... 

She could of easily died from each and every scar.... 

Each relationship played a part...

She tried to focus on herself, but she easily gets off track... 

Some how she ended stuck on some tracks...

With a train heading toward her... 

She was so busy waiting for a hero to come save her... 

She didn't realize she wasn't tied down...

My Thoughts

Words spread across a sheet 

But when you look underneath
You see me
Deep in thought
Forget everything you been taught
Because my words aren't really words
They are my thoughts
So as you read this for a moment you know what I was thinking
As that sink in
Lose yourself and become me
So If you're me
Am I you???
Confusing right
Well my mind is the confusing type

Your All

After giving your all 

How do you know when to stop
Is it really worth hitting the bottom
Just so you can touch the top
So you not out there looking for love
You here and living it up
Hard times always thrown at you
Yet you never giving up
People talk down on you
Yet you always keep your head up
You can never do enough
But in reality you always do too much
No times for social ties
Dressing for the occasion
Success is the goal
It rarely comes to those that are patient
So you not waiting
You out here and you chasing
But sometimes you find yourself unprepared for the chase
And get caught
From every mistake you ever made
Was a lesson that you were taught
So you never falling in the same trap twice
You don't gamble with your life
Analyzing mistakes
And pushing forward
Negativity tries to hold you back
But you continue to push forward
Knowing Jesus got your back
Leave the past where it's at
It can only tell the story of how you got here
Not the person that you are
Because you came too far
Please just continue to give your all...

Soul Searching

I can't talk to no one about my feelings
Because it always seems like no one understands
Except this piece of paper and this pen
And I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again
Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

 Every breath of fresh air
Only leave me wanting for more


I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over Again

Life is precious
But why do I feel as if I'm being crushed by the pressure
Every one want something from me
But when it come down to it
They never there for me

Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Who do I need in this life? No one…
Who do I look up to in this life? No one….
Isn't it crazy how the people that suppose to be there for you,
Are never there for you
Dad where were you when I needed you
Matter of fact Forget You!
You not even half the man I became
And I'm only half the man I want to become
So that makes you less than quarter of a man

I can't talk to no one about my feelings
Except this piece of paper and this pen


I'm lost searching for myself
Where do I begin
The apple then rolled far from the tree
Well, I'll wait till my core decay
And my seed is implanted in the earth
I'll nurture it as it grows
In hopes that my seed don't fall from me
Let it rest beside me as I shelter it from the cold world

I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again

See my mind constantly falter
As my mentality is altered
I’m alone in this world till I walk to the altar
To afraid to say I do
Even more afraid to say I don't
How can I say I love you
If I'm still searching for myself

My life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Clearly I'm confused
Eyes look upon me
From their smirks I can tell they are amused
Who are you to judge me
Only God can judge me
So I'm sitting on the stand
My life being my only plea
Asking my Lord to please forgive me
Please make room in heaven for a soul
But if you feel that I'm meant for hell
My soul shall burn for eternity
Only because I was unable to find me

I cant talk to no one about my feelings
Cause it always seems like no one understands
Except this piece of paper and this pen
And I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again
Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Dear Dad

Dear Dad; 

I guess the child support checks just wasn't enough
See the money was good but it wasn't your love
I tried to do good but my will just wasn't enough
Now I'm writing you this letter from this jail cell
Living the rest of my life in this caged hell
So listen up dad to the story I tell
See it all started when I was 16 years old
Mom couldn't feed me so I was left in the cold
I bet it's getting interesting as the story get told…

I've been kick out of so many different high schools
All the dudes I kicked it with were all fools
I was living my life with no rules
Times were hard I had no place to sleep
I even stood on a bridge and was ready to leap
But I been through too much, I didn’t have time to weep
The same day a Blood asked me if I was down for the cause
I didn't even think... No second of pause
Cause from the looks of it they had it all 

In God's Hands

Nothing makes me happier than when i'm with you... 

Words sometimes can be untrue... 

So how do I prove my love to you...

Should I write you a poem... 

Telling you all the ways you turn me on...

Or should I cry my heart out to you as we sit here talking on the phone...

Just leave me alone... 

If you don't want to be the one... 

Leave the cracks in my heart undone...

If I handed my heart to you what would you do... 

I gave my heart to you what is there left to prove... 

What must I do to get through...

I'm losing sleep...

Tears I"m starting to weep... 

It seems we stand at the point of defeat...

So do I give up... 

Do we give in... 

Did I do enough... 

Should we have even begin...

Don't know if you a lesson or a blessing...

But this relationship is depressing... 

And we stressing... 

I hope that you a blessing..

Because I'm tired of searching, 

And coming up empty handed...

So I just hope we both fell, 

And in God hands we landed...