Dear Dad

Dear Dad; 

I guess the child support checks just wasn't enough
See the money was good but it wasn't your love
I tried to do good but my will just wasn't enough
Now I'm writing you this letter from this jail cell
Living the rest of my life in this caged hell
So listen up dad to the story I tell
See it all started when I was 16 years old
Mom couldn't feed me so I was left in the cold
I bet it's getting interesting as the story get told…

I've been kick out of so many different high schools
All the dudes I kicked it with were all fools
I was living my life with no rules
Times were hard I had no place to sleep
I even stood on a bridge and was ready to leap
But I been through too much, I didn’t have time to weep
The same day a Blood asked me if I was down for the cause
I didn't even think... No second of pause
Cause from the looks of it they had it all 

So from then on it became blood or bleed
And they became my family providing my every need
This path of life is easy where having no father leads
So I was out on the block selling and stealing
I got robbed myself... I got robbed of my feelings
My vices were behind all my dealings
See this next part I know you really going to like
It's about the only thing we did alike
I done slept with so many girls I might have ten little Mikes

I know that's bad but it could have been worse
But now they share my fate... I shared the curse
I'm just glad I'm alive and not in a hurse
But I guess I been delaying the story
I’m in jail now I don't ask you to worry
Because really you can’t do nothing for me
I did good without you at least until I got caught
And I'm not saying it's your fault 
But a dad suppose to be there for his son.. At least that's what I thought

See it was just the usual gig
Go in the crib steal all the valuables... just nothing big...
But everything went wrong and this is what I did
See unlike the other spots here someone was home
I walked in the room and there he was with 911 on the phone
So I acted without thinking and put two bullets in his dome
Even though I was strapped it was never meant to be used
So there was this body and there was me left confused
But what could I do my adrenaline and reactions became fused

Now his life was gone and I was the one to blame
I knew my guilt so I waited till the police came
Dad this is my story on you I place no blame
So I went in front of the 12 and they gave me life
Isn't that funny, That’s the same sentence you gave me Right?
So I had to sit there as his wife glare pierced my heart sharper than a butcher knife
And as I pulled the trigger I didn't think of his kid
Now he got to grow up without a dad just like I did
All this was my doing this is what I did

All this only left me to remember how once my mom told me I was just like you, I didn't believe her.
But now as I end this letter, I'm a Believer.
                                                                                                                           Love Always,

Your Child _ Support Check Receiver