The Same Smile

When you think of her

You think of her smile

She then had the same smile

Since she was a little child

You can ask her uncle, her aunty,

Even the lady who claims the last time she seen her

That she could barely crawl

They claim she was a happy baby

Instead of crying she would laugh when she'd fall

And ever since then she kept the same smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

I met her when I was eight 

She was my play mate

We use to play on the swings

Try to swing over the top

imagining we had wings

We use to play house, 

I was Daddy

And she was Mommy

I would go to work,

When I got home she would console me

Her lil sister was only five

She was our daughter

All this was only imagination

But she wouldn't believe that

Even if you told her

Back then she would always smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

See we was only eight

But ever since then,

I always dreamed about our fate

We was only 12 when I asked her to our first dance

I was scared to ask her of course

But I just couldn't miss the chance

To my surprise she said yes

And also blessed, me with her smile

The same smile she had since she was a little child

This Morning

I opened my eyes this morning and took my first breath...

Took notice of my surroundings, Then checked myself...

And made sure I was in good health... 

Sounds like an easy task... 

But tell that to 1 of the thousand's of people that didn't wake up...

Tell that to 1 of the many abused child who life story is worst than any you can make up...

The smallest things we take for granted, Is cherished by someone else... 

So Cherish every breath... 

Live for the moment...

Everyday find your enjoyment... 

Don't get loss in your stress...

Remember that you're blessed...

Who Will Help Her???

You didn't see the tears 

That she was hiding through the years

You did see the bruises

Though she covered them with excuses

You didn't see the fights

That happen behind their doors at night

You never heard her cries

But you saw the pain behind her eyes

She never asked you for help

Deep down inside she knew that she needed her self

Because who knew what she face better than she did

She was a grown woman on the out side but inside still a kid

Calling out for help but no one would answer

And as time went on the problem grew worse like cancer

She looking for a "Doctor" to come and tear it out

But no one heard her mental scream and internal shout

So who will help her who physically cant ask for help

And who will help her who cant help her self

Love, Laughter, & Tears

Let my love

Be like 

Your favorite song

Always there

To comfort you

And to relate to you

Let my laugter

Be like

A past good memory

When ever you think of it

It also make you laugh

Let my tears

Be like 

A secret message

Letting you know 

That I hurt too

Worthless Tears

If tears could heal... 

Everyone that fell from her eyes would be worth it's weight in gold... 

Making it all worth it...

It seem like he hurts her on purpose...

So now she crying to the Lord asking why she deserve this... 

Feeling so low, damn near worthless...

She's getting bags under her eyes... 

Losing too much sleep stressing over some guy... 

To escape she search for a high...

Her escape is a lie... 

She buried herself alive... 

She could of easily died from each and every scar.... 

Each relationship played a part...

She tried to focus on herself, but she easily gets off track... 

Some how she ended stuck on some tracks...

With a train heading toward her... 

She was so busy waiting for a hero to come save her... 

She didn't realize she wasn't tied down...

My Thoughts

Words spread across a sheet 

But when you look underneath
You see me
Deep in thought
Forget everything you been taught
Because my words aren't really words
They are my thoughts
So as you read this for a moment you know what I was thinking
As that sink in
Lose yourself and become me
So If you're me
Am I you???
Confusing right
Well my mind is the confusing type

Your All

After giving your all 

How do you know when to stop
Is it really worth hitting the bottom
Just so you can touch the top
So you not out there looking for love
You here and living it up
Hard times always thrown at you
Yet you never giving up
People talk down on you
Yet you always keep your head up
You can never do enough
But in reality you always do too much
No times for social ties
Dressing for the occasion
Success is the goal
It rarely comes to those that are patient
So you not waiting
You out here and you chasing
But sometimes you find yourself unprepared for the chase
And get caught
From every mistake you ever made
Was a lesson that you were taught
So you never falling in the same trap twice
You don't gamble with your life
Analyzing mistakes
And pushing forward
Negativity tries to hold you back
But you continue to push forward
Knowing Jesus got your back
Leave the past where it's at
It can only tell the story of how you got here
Not the person that you are
Because you came too far
Please just continue to give your all...

Soul Searching

I can't talk to no one about my feelings
Because it always seems like no one understands
Except this piece of paper and this pen
And I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again
Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

 Every breath of fresh air
Only leave me wanting for more


I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over Again

Life is precious
But why do I feel as if I'm being crushed by the pressure
Every one want something from me
But when it come down to it
They never there for me

Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Who do I need in this life? No one…
Who do I look up to in this life? No one….
Isn't it crazy how the people that suppose to be there for you,
Are never there for you
Dad where were you when I needed you
Matter of fact Forget You!
You not even half the man I became
And I'm only half the man I want to become
So that makes you less than quarter of a man

I can't talk to no one about my feelings
Except this piece of paper and this pen


I'm lost searching for myself
Where do I begin
The apple then rolled far from the tree
Well, I'll wait till my core decay
And my seed is implanted in the earth
I'll nurture it as it grows
In hopes that my seed don't fall from me
Let it rest beside me as I shelter it from the cold world

I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again

See my mind constantly falter
As my mentality is altered
I’m alone in this world till I walk to the altar
To afraid to say I do
Even more afraid to say I don't
How can I say I love you
If I'm still searching for myself

My life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Clearly I'm confused
Eyes look upon me
From their smirks I can tell they are amused
Who are you to judge me
Only God can judge me
So I'm sitting on the stand
My life being my only plea
Asking my Lord to please forgive me
Please make room in heaven for a soul
But if you feel that I'm meant for hell
My soul shall burn for eternity
Only because I was unable to find me

I cant talk to no one about my feelings
Cause it always seems like no one understands
Except this piece of paper and this pen
And I'm tired of going through the same things
Over and Over again
Life not what it should be
So I'm left to pretend

Dear Dad

Dear Dad; 

I guess the child support checks just wasn't enough
See the money was good but it wasn't your love
I tried to do good but my will just wasn't enough
Now I'm writing you this letter from this jail cell
Living the rest of my life in this caged hell
So listen up dad to the story I tell
See it all started when I was 16 years old
Mom couldn't feed me so I was left in the cold
I bet it's getting interesting as the story get told…

I've been kick out of so many different high schools
All the dudes I kicked it with were all fools
I was living my life with no rules
Times were hard I had no place to sleep
I even stood on a bridge and was ready to leap
But I been through too much, I didn’t have time to weep
The same day a Blood asked me if I was down for the cause
I didn't even think... No second of pause
Cause from the looks of it they had it all 

In God's Hands

Nothing makes me happier than when i'm with you... 

Words sometimes can be untrue... 

So how do I prove my love to you...

Should I write you a poem... 

Telling you all the ways you turn me on...

Or should I cry my heart out to you as we sit here talking on the phone...

Just leave me alone... 

If you don't want to be the one... 

Leave the cracks in my heart undone...

If I handed my heart to you what would you do... 

I gave my heart to you what is there left to prove... 

What must I do to get through...

I'm losing sleep...

Tears I"m starting to weep... 

It seems we stand at the point of defeat...

So do I give up... 

Do we give in... 

Did I do enough... 

Should we have even begin...

Don't know if you a lesson or a blessing...

But this relationship is depressing... 

And we stressing... 

I hope that you a blessing..

Because I'm tired of searching, 

And coming up empty handed...

So I just hope we both fell, 

And in God hands we landed...

Her Walls

Her walls go higher than any ceiling

To build them so high she paid a killing

She gave up her soul

Her heart... Her whole

Being

See she was seeing

Every man as being one

The one that did her wrong

And now shes content with being alone

In My Heart You Lay

Your attention means to me

Much more than anything

Excluding your love

But including your heart

Because If I have your mind

I know the rest wouldnt part

So I'll just take your heart

Maybe at hello,

Is where we should start

But goodbye is where we shall part

Her Song

All she can and ever will be is a beautiful soul... 

But you would never know... 

Because she hides it, 

Too many lies she been told...

Her skin is void of scars... 

Yet she's surrounded by pain... 

Reality became her bars... 

So she get lost behind the melody of her guitar...

Her story travel with her voice... 

But all you hear is noise...

Shes crying inside although,

She's singing a song of rejoice. 

She singing her heart out 

Because she know her pain will never outweigh her joys...

They say she shouldn't cry, 

She's too pretty and too young... 

But somehow she believes she doesn't belong... 

So her escape became her song...