Words

I can take pain up to torture
I can deal with the abuse
I can deal with loneliness
Solitude is actually preferred 
I can't deal with the words
It's not the negative words that get to me though
Its words like "I Love You"
Those words cut the deepest
Because even though I know you lying
For some reason I want to believe you
Especially If I know I love you
You make me second guess myself
When you say things like that
Like maybe I don't love myself enough to believe you
But in reality I know I love myself too much to believe you

Words do the most damage
See physical pain go away
But them words stay
I can live through the pain
But it's hard to live with a broken heart
Especially when you deny it's even broken
I try to hide the pain behind my smile
The worse the pain means the wider my smile
See pain hurt but them words cut deeper
The truth hurts... Them lies kill...
They kill all types of relations
They kill trust
And each lie you told had the potential to kill us


I try to act like the words don't get to me
But all your words cut me
The cuts that hurt the most are the ones you dont see
Tears are not water but emotions 
Bottled up under stress
So I shed emotions hoping it help me get over your words
Try to hold on to happiness
But the harder I try to do that
The harder it get to smile
Because those words never go away
They stay with me 
Even when the pain go away
They never go away
There is no escape 
Your words chase me
No matter how hard I try to run
They still hunt me
When your words finally leave
I get surrounded by silence
Then my own thoughts become haunted
By your words
I rather you hit me or ignore me
Than tell me you love me
I can take the abuse 
But I can't take your words 
Because your words hurt...